Victim of a Cereal Killer

Alrightey… I’m going to start a new series in my weblog. It is called…
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Tadaaa… “State of Mentality” series!
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So what is this blog all about? It’s going to be my observation and humble opinions (actually, not so humble) of people I meet or people around me or just anyone at all. I’ll simply number them 1, 2, 3… until I run out of ideas to write, or until the day people decides to use their brains and be nice (especially to me). I’m still hesitating whether to use real names. Maybe not lah. But I’d still like to say, siapa makan cili, dialah rasa pedas.
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So here goes the first of the series…
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It was a trip to Kuala Kangsar. A two day trip over the weekend to visit a friend whose hometown is there. He promised all kind of good food and pretty girls. So off we went, the 12 of us in a bus to Bandar DiRaja of Perak.
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The trip was fun.
The trip was nice.
The trip was happy.
And the trip was great.
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However, it was something that happened on the way back that pissed me of tremendously. And it’s eating me away inside. In Mandarin, it’s 心理不平衡. Inner state of mind not balanced, or psychology tak seimbang.
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Seriously, I can’t think of any reason why it has got to be me. I’m a nice guy generally (not the nicest, but nice enough), and I’m pretty agreeable person.
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Back to the story. We were gathering at the porch of our friend’s house, preparing to go to the bus station. Typical of me, I was chit-chatting and goofing around with the guys. Then this Hannah girl came up to me and murmured something that she wanted me to talk to in a corner. Wah! What’s so important and secretive that it can’t be said in front of other friends?!
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It seems, it was a matter of seating positions in the bus. They faced a dilemma: ONE of the 12 seats was isolated. While the rest of seats were up in the front of the bus, this particular seat was way at the back. And she had asked me, as if it was a matter of life and death, to take that seat. I, being an agreeable person, stupidly agreed without thinking.
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It was only after 5 minutes that I came to realise that I’m a F*CKING FOOL to have said yes.
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After some deduction, I came to realise that I’m a natural choice. Of the 5 guys, 2 had girlfriends with them on the trip, so it’s a no-no to distrupt the lovey-dovey couples. As for the rest 3 guys? Probably I’m the most open minded among them and the least to hold a grudge. Therefore, the easiet target.
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Now lets analyse the situation objectively,
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The problem wasn’t about the seat or me being stupid or they being bad. It was the mentality of the people that asked me to take the back seat. Hannah had only been a messenger. There was at least a few people whispering among themselves before coming to this decision. This selfishness among us Chinese in Malaysia is absolutely disappointing. In order to gain a small advantage or benefit, they had pre-plan to put someone on the knife edge.
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So what’s the advantage in this case? To reduce the possibility of seating in the back seat to zero, by putting someone there first. It doesn’t matter if it’s me or someone else. It just proves how self centred and selfish the Chinese mentality is. I cannot express more how disappointed I am, that the Chinese people in M’sia can behave in such a selfish manner. I had thought that the Chinese are generous and “大方”. I am so wrong.
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Now lets analyse the situation NOT so objectively,
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I thought all of you were trustworthy friends. Yet you abused this trust and my agreeable charater. Just because you wanted to sit with your friends. I’m am more hurt and sad than I am angry. I would have volunteered to take the back seat if I had seen any of the you girls sitting there isolated at the end of bus, even without you asking me to do so.
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You may argue that since I’m almost always fast asleep in a bus trip, I wouldn’t and shouldn’t mind.
Yes it’s true I sleep throughout bus trips, but that does not give you any right to put me there in the first place.
Yes, I can’t take it that I’ll be isolated for 3 hours without a fuss since I’m such an open minded/sporting fella. However, it hurts me a lot that you abused my easy going nature for your own priviledge.
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You thought that no one would be selfless enough to exchange with you should you happen to take that seat. It is because you are selfish, you thought that everyone else is just as selfish as you are. Just like how a thief thinks everyone wants to rob him.
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Conclusion,
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Selfishness = Chinese Malaysian mentality (especially those from small towns) = small town mentality
It’s time to get rid of these mentality.
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Yours Sincerely,
the CRapologist.